February 21st, 2018

It didn't really hit me till today that I'd be going in for an operation tomorrow. I think if it had struck me yesterday, it might have made things feel surreal that I wouldn't be returning to work for a week. Even having Helene come down to assure me that all was well didn't strike me that I wasn't having a normal weekend. Besides dealing with my leave, this last week has felt mostly normal. It was talking about having an operation that felt surreal for some reason.

But today... Normally when Candace joins me, I'm helping her out. Reminding her that our stop is coming up, or asking if she wants to stop at the store. Today I was out of it. My head was swimming and Candace was the one reminding me that our stop was next. She was asking me if we needed to hit the bank today, or stop by the pharmacy.

Speaking of which, I've got my new meds. The plan was for them to replace my refill and take over from there. But that wouldn't have happened until next week going in to the new month. Since my operation is tomorrow, Dr. Laurie wanted me to let the old stuff clear out of my system. We would anyway, but this way after the operation I can start on the new meds from scratch. Come to think of it, that might actually be why I've been off today. I didn't take my usual dose this morning.

So yea, Hal had picked Candace up on the way to getting me and we all went to the gym. From there as usual Hal went to class and Candace and I hopped on the bus to run chores. Candace was great, very helpful and observant. I hadn't said anything about how I was feeling, but I think she noticed.

The roll reversal was complete, because even after getting home she was still helping me do my chores. And since I had that help to get things doen more easily, we then both stepped into the kitchen to help Mom. It was a lot of fun just us three.

Hal came by after class to pick Candace and I up. Mom made sure to send Candace home with some food, and we brought her home. Then Hal took me out to dinner. It was a quiet meal, which didn't help my nerves at all. Started to make it feel like it might be our last. So I asked Hal how his day went just to start conversation. That seemed to do the trick, and soon we were back to our usual selves.

Unfortunately our evening couldn't last. I need to be up early tomorrow. But Hal promised me he'd try and stop by after his lab.