Just had a dizzy spell, clock says quarter to 10. As tired as I am I'm not sure why I haven't gotten to sleep, but I've been tossing and turning for the last hour or so. Just can't seem to get comfortable, and in a way I almost didn't notice I was having an attack until I tried to turn over. I keep thinking about Sam and all the difficulties I've had with him. I'm kinda happy he's joining us, but I feel like as soon as he gets there I'm going to have to justify myself to him and I keep coming up with explanations and defenses to his imaginary accusations. I don't know why I'm getting so wound up like this and the frustration that causes just makes it worse.
Hopefully getting this out will calm me down.
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